Monday, May 16, 2011

Fantasies

I have spent a lot of time in fantasy world lately.......thinking of what it would be like to stay home, the things I would do, how I would spend my time. I am so envious of Rick and my friends who have retired.....I want to garden, to paint, to write songs. I want our friends to come and visit, to sit on the porch and drink coffee. I think about just hanging with the dogs. Would I get lonely and bored? I have a girlfriend who says I would just stay home and never leave......she is probably right.

My energy is very low tonight, and I am not feeling all that well. Running on empty may be my problem, it's a mystery. But I am loving these fantasies........of friends who visit, me in the kitchen cooking, laughter all through the house, a garden full of flowers, and the paintings that I dream of painting, and singing new songs we have written for all of our friends to hear.

It has been cold and rainy for days. Even my beloved cup of hot tea, does not warm me. The chill has reached deep, but I know the sun will shine again soon, and the hot moist heat of Alabama summers will wrap around me like an old blanket.

My bed calls to me, and dreams beckon........Good night Sweet dreams.


6 comments:

  1. I hope that the sun will soon start shining again for you over there! I am retired and have been since I was 57, and I absolutely love it! There's just not enough time in the week, and I don't know how I ever found time to go to work. Lovely to meet up with friends, go for walks, have lunches, read books - oh! the list is endless. Sorry, I've probably made you feel worse now!

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  2. Sometimes I have fantasies too but mine always seem to be getting away instead of staying home. Along with that would be coming into a very large sum of money that I would use to travel and help out friends I know all over the world. One for instance like a single mom with a couple of boys that I would buy them a home of their own furnished and paid for. I have spent billions over the years during fantasies like these. Take care, get some rest & feel warm thoughts coming your way from way up north in NC.

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  3. Perhaps you need to start thinking along the lines of staying home more often? I don't know your schedule or finances but it sounds like you're burning out a bit. Your body is telling you something.

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  4. It's surprising how many of my friends couldn't wait to reach retirement, and then once they got there, found it so boring, they ended up going back to work. Nuts, huh? Nothing boring about it for my husband and me! And with the number of interests you have, I have a feeling it won't be boring for you, either.

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  5. I hope you can retire soon, Jilda. My husband is really looking forward to it. It will be five more years for him.

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  6. I hope you can retire soon, I love being able to sit around doing nothing in between school and my summer job :) Hope you can do the same too soon

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