Thursday, July 28, 2016

Demons

Two yoga classes and a meditation class today, I might be a wee bit drained.  But, those who came to any of the classes were there because they wanted to come and the energy in the room was amazing.
I had new students, which is an almost every day occurrence.  One student had attended many types of yoga class, the other had never been to a yoga class...I think they both found what they needed today.

A few students will leaving in the next couple of days.  You look in their eyes and you see both fear and excitement.  They leave their protective bubble at the center and go back to face their demons.
For some, their demons win.  For others, they begin to understand this journey of sobriety and they live their lives, one day at a time.

My  mind and body are tired tonight.  Time for a cup of hot tea.  May we all face our demons tomorrow and win.
Goodnight, Sweet dreams

Wednesday, July 27, 2016

Magic at the Shoals

Rick and I got up this morning and headed for Muscle Shoals.  It's less than two hours away and a pretty drive.  It was cloudy, muggy and a few showers falling, but the closer we got to the Shoals the more the sun began to shine.  I took it as a good omen.

We went to see some friends Christine Olhman, Kelvin Holly and Kim Stovall.  Christine and Kelvin are musicians ( Google them) and Kim is truly a musician's best friend and just an all around good person.  Christine and Kelvin did a small show at Counts Brothers Music Store there in Muscle Shoals.  Almost everyone there was a fellow musician ( that's when you know you are in a magical place when other musicians  fill the room to hear you.)

Christine and Kelvin did not disappoint, with their stories and their music.  She is one of the most emotional, incredible singers and songwriters that I have ever heard.  Kelvin's fingers dance on guitar strings and if he wasn't such a nice guy, you'd be green with envy.

About midway through the show Travis Wammack  joined Christine and they did a song he wrote called Greenwood Mississippi. Google Travis and the song.  I know I am asking you to Google a lot, but you have to read about these folks to understand how much talent was there.  Just think of it as Music Appreciation 101 tonight.   :)

So our hump day has been awesome, we both are still smiling.  And oh yeah, we had lunch at a wonderful coffee house,  Rivertown.  Great food and coffee.
Time for a goodnight's sleep.

Goodnight, Sweet dreams

Tuesday, July 26, 2016

The Good Days

Seeing someone's face after they have successfully meditated for the first time is a gift.  Today I had a couple of students who decided to stay for meditation class after yoga.  They were nervous and unsure but willing to try.

As the two of them and one other student settled in for meditation I knew in my heart it was what they needed.

After the class was over, all three were almost on the verge of tears.  They felt the peace that I had been telling them about, they understood how special stillness was and what it meant to be mindful and aware.  The four of us knew that mediation would be a tool to help them in their recovery.

There are days when I think that my words, efforts and energies are in vain.  There are days like today when I think maybe this time I helped someone.  These are the good days.

Monday, July 25, 2016

Busy Monday

Yoga classes for sleep this afternoon and tonight.  When you hear people snoring in relaxation, you know they needed the class.

Thunder in the distance is driving the dogs crazy tonight.  I think Calliou has to have one of those vests, he seems to be getting worse.

The heat is still brutal, we all wait for September and hope for the best.  My flowers are starting to wilt no matter how much I water them.

A busy Monday and I am tired.
Goodnight Sweet dreams

Sunday, July 24, 2016

What I Needed

My friend Bo Sebastian sent me a message a few weeks ago and told me had a new book coming out.
I soon went to Amazon.com and in a few days Bo's latest book, "Your New Story, Your New Life" ( The Metaphysical Mind) was at my door.  I know there is Kindle, but I love the feel of paper in my hands and I knew this would be a book I wanted on my bookshelf.


I met Bo many years ago in Nashville.  He was my vocal coach and soon became a good friend.
He is an author and yoga teacher and life coach as well.  Bo's book came to me with a message that I needed.  One paragraph spoke to me strongly I cried.  " Everyone gets a certain amount of energy  each day. You can spend all your energy on the needs of others and forget about your own dreams or you can define time each day to channel good energy to your own new ideas and desires."

I had identified myself as a care giver years ago, and though I taught others to take care of themselves and follow their dreams, mine often fell by the wayside.  Usually because I was too busy helping someone else.

It is interesting to read this passage in Bo's book, because for the past couple of months Rick and I both had acknowledged that if we wanted to achieve some of our dreams we had to let go of some things and work on what we wanted.  Bo's words just reinforced what we had discussed.

Bo's book is insightful and thought provoking.  I know not everyone is interested in metaphysics but it is a subject that I love.

Hoping that your weekend has been what you needed.  Ours was has been one of rest and taking care of things around the house.  Just what we needed.

Wishing you a Monday that brings you the transformations you need, don't forget to laugh out loud.

Saturday, July 23, 2016

Light

A quote from a favorite author tonight...wishing you all a peaceful Sunday.


"We are all broken, that's how the light gets in."  - Ernest Hemingway

Friday, July 22, 2016

More Encouragement

In 2012 as my very first IVIG treatment began to flow though my veins it sounded as though wind was rushing through my right ear. Within a couple of days after that treatment, a sensation of instability hit so bad I could not walk, horrible nausea came with it, headache, light sensitivity and it came with no warning.  After some treatments the symptoms would last for a couple of days, sometimes for a couple of weeks.  I also developed other issues, and my quality of life went into a tailspin.  And, I noticed that my hearing in the right ear was coming and going.

For almost two years no one in the medical field that I saw had answers.  There were tests, MRIs, x-rays, blood work, questions and no answers.  I found a support group for my disease on line, and was given the name of  a doctor who mostly did research but saw a few patients.  He agreed to see me, and he finally told me that 10% of those who did IVIG treatment had side effects like mine.  Aseptic meningitis was the diagnosis.

Through those three years that I did treatments, the brand was changed, the infusion time slowed, fluids were added and there would be relief for  maybe one month and then it would all come back.
After three years, against the immune doctor's advice I stopped treatments.  The side effects continued for about 7 months and then there was the wasp incidence. I was stung 15 times by red wasps and for about 6 months the episodes stopped.

In February of this year I had the flu, and in April all those horrific symptoms began to come back.
Not as frequently, but they were there.    A few weeks ago we were having Sunday dinner with my sister Pat and her family and my niece Becky and her husband Jeff were talking to me about my health.  As we talked Jeff looked at me and said I know nothing about the aseptic meningitis but I have meniere's disease and many of the issues you are having I have had too.  He encouraged me to call his doctor and on Monday morning I did.

This week I saw Jeff's doctor and was diagnosed with menieres and migraines.  ( I had already read that if you had previous issues with migraines that the IVIG could cause them to worsen or reappear.)  The doctor was kind, informative and supportive and told me that no one really knows why or how sudden deafness happens and he was not sure if any of my hearing loss would come back, but he explained in detail about menieres and migraines.  And there were some simple meds we could try and maybe at some point a couple of procedures.

I have said all of this tonight to tell you that I started the meds Wednesday and for the first time since 2012 the wind in my ear is subsiding and I can actually hear better.  Who knows what the future will bring or what path this journey will take me, but tonight I am hopeful...hopeful that I have found answers, hopeful that at least a little of my hearing will be restored.

Jeff had also received infusion treatments  ( different than mine) and his symptoms started afterwards, no one knows or will say if our issues were caused by the treatments we both received, maybe it is just a strange coincidence.  But I write this tonight to encourage those of you who might be struggling with health issues, who feel that you have fallen through the cracks or that no one cares...don't give up.  You have to be your own advocate, you have to take a part in your wellness and health, and you have to do what you feel in your gut is right for you.