Tuesday, October 29, 2013


It is fairly easy for me to let go of control and attachment when it comes to me personally.......to do the same with family and friends......a whole different story.  Example, a good friend's dad is ill, I know she is having a difficult time.....and right now, I can't be there for her.  Example, other good friends will be in concert on Halloween, I can't be there to support them, and they are always there for me.  Example, I found out today my younger brother has to have some tests at the hospital in a few days, I can be there then, but I think I let him down today.  Right now, it is impossible for me to control any of these situations.  All I can think about, are the lessons that I am being taught about control.

Honestly, I am doing some serious struggling tonight.......my whole belief system....is based on kindness and being there for others in need.....and tonight, I think I have let some of the people I care about most down.  Letting go of control is a hard lesson for anyone, and really, let's face it.....there is no control.  Life happens, life goes on, life is messy........and it is going to take place, whether we like it or not.  I am not at my best health wise tonight, I feel even more vulnerable because of that.

I know that there are many of you who read this blog who struggle with the issues that I struggle with.......we have to realize daily, we can't control what is taking place around us and to those we love, we can only control how we react......hard lesson, but we can learn it together.


  1. That is so very, very true, Jilda. I hate that feeling of being out of control. I also HATE it when I feel I have let someone down-especially family. It is so hard for me to say No to my family and when I do I feel guilty.

    When your health is compromised I do believe that makes it even harder because you already feel out of control on some level. Add external issues/pressures and it can be just overwhelming.

    It's okay- we all feel that way at least some of the time- xo Diana

  2. I agree with this wholeheartedly. It's not easy to cede control but the sooner we learn that we have no choice but to cede it, the sooner we can be happy. In my humble opinion.