One of the things about aging, I think, is that you begin to really think about your choices that you make every day. In my youth, I wanted to make everyone happy...so I tried to do everything, never say no, and eventually I made myself miserable.
It took a awhile to understand how to make personal parameters for me. As the years went by, and health issues flared ,time and my spending of it became important in many ways. Time and energy, my two most important resources, resonate more every day.
I look at how I spend my time, who gets my precious energy and does what I'm doing bring me joy and satisfaction. Sometimes, life happens and that time and energy is spent...you can't get it back...on things and people that I didn't necessarily want to give it to. But now that I am in my 60's I am becoming more and more greedy about my personal resources.
It has become intensely important to me to spend my time and energy on what I need. I want my creative energy to be used wisely, my time to benefit me and those I choose for it to benefit.
My paths that I look at now, the paths I choose to travel are quite different than before. I know that even if I live another 20-25 years that is not long...it is the blink of an eye. I have made choices in the past few weeks that I am very proud of, I didn't settle. I finally understand boundaries and parameters.
We are so excited about our gig tomorrow night, our first for 2016. As always, we want to give the best of ourselves to our audience and we want to have fun. Wish you all could be there.
Goodnight Sweet dreams