Some days are tests, given by a universe that is secretly laughing and wondering what your response will be.
My day of tests has been strange, not a bad day, but a trying one. Everywhere I have been, pretty much every one I have talked with, had contact with, has been in the mood to vent. Most days I am a sounding board, a listening device, but today all those opinions and protests and complaints have swirled around me like falling leaves......so many, so fast......I could not comprehend......I am quite dizzy. Even the dogs are antsy and grumpy tonight.
Why do I think this day has been one of tests? Because, if I had opened my mouth and spoken any thoughts, ......I would have been sucked into the vortex, it was time to listen and say nothing........listen and breathe. I am exhausted tonight from so much negative energy circling around me.....this was the day the memo went out to voice your complaints......and I am glad I did not get the memo.
So, I did a lot of breath work, taught my classes with great joy and love, ignored the comments that I saw and heard through out the day and reminded myself that every one has a bad day, everyone is entitled to their opinions......and I must be the wacky one, because I still see the good all around me. So what is the good that I see all around me? There is kindness, human dignity, and love, even in the places where it seems none might exist. There is beauty in the raw and the ugly and the sad if you look for it. And if we allow ourselves,
hope lives in the darkest of hearts, it just takes a tiny crack for the light to feed it. As far as the greed and the hate and the fear that most seem to think has encompassed the universe....I believe we find what we look for, we get what we think about it.
Who knows whether I passed my tests today or not, only time will tell. But some days the buck has to stop here, the gossip, the rumors, the whine, the anger......it has to stop somewhere,might as well be here.
I sit here and breathe, and release.......
Good night, Sweet dreams