To be honest, I do not like to go inward.......if I am honest and objective......my faults and weaknesses flash like neon signs, and it is easy to then wallow in the mire. But going inward can teach you great lessons......like today, I have struggled with a friendship for the past few weeks.......usually I read people really well, but this friend is at a difficult spot on life's path..... they reach out, and when I hold out my hand......they back away.
I realized today, I have to step back.......it is true, I can't fix everything, I can't help everyone.......hard words to swallow. I also realized today that I have to set some boundaries......the walls have to go up. Watching someone you care for go down the slippery path is almost unbearable, but if you're not careful, they will take you with them. Being there is one thing, being used is something totally different.
I know that we all come into each other's lives for reasons, paths cross, and lessons are taught. With time,
maybe the answers will come....tonight I send my friend love and prayers, hoping that they will find the peace they search for. During those meditations today, my lesson came to me.......all I can do is love and pray....no judgments, let go of the worry, and be there if needed.