friends, music, great food, and mother nature. That's when I began to feel the change, it was like waking up from a long sleep, to be truthful, it started even a few weeks before we left. I began to rethink what I wanted, I started to connect with new and old friends, and realized it was important to pursue what was important to me.
I reached a point where I was willing to release and let go, and not be afraid to think about what I wanted and not put a million other things in front of me.
Telluride was the catalyst, and my path has definitely changed since then.
This past weekend, spending time with old friends, reconnecting and putting works into motion it all feels so good. Life is beginning to feel like it did a long time ago, possibilities are appearing and lots of cobwebs are being swept down.
There were many things along the way the past several years that had sucked the life out of me.
And I think at some point, I grew too tired to fight it, so I just allowed myself to just float.
So many of the things that had been important to me, had just fallen by the wayside.
But I have realized it takes some effort but not nearly as much as I had feared to wake up and live.
I believe in myself again, I believe in my dreams. I will always give, I will always serve, but now
some of that giving will be to myself. It is so easy to lose sight of one's path, so easy to drift along. It is scary how easy it is to lose confidence in yourself, and lose faith in your own vision.
Life is full of obstacles and detours, and many of those bring magic, but sometimes there's so many of them, we lose our way. Every once in awhile, it's important to sit down and truly see where we are, what we are doing and where we are going.
Sometimes, we do have to pinch ourselves to make sure we are alive, we are awake! Yes the pinch hurts, but the pain doesn't last long. So if you find that you have allowed your self to be lulled into some sort of sleep of the walking dead, give your self a pinch. Wake up, it's great to be alive!