I think that I am like many of you, some lessons are more difficult than others, and for some reason, I have to relearn some of them. You would think that after 16 months of treatments I would know the drill about what to do the following days......well, I do know, but this was one of those weeks I just didn't do what I needed to........which was rest for a couple of days. I am paying the price tonight.......this too shall pass.
There are lessons in life that we all know the drill for........and we don't follow them......and we pay the price. You know, it's like driving the car when it really needs service or thinking you can make it to the gas station when the warning light flashes. Putting off that check-up with the doctor.....and then finally when you do go in, all those should haves added up to a great big, oh no.
Little things add up, knowing what is best for you and not doing it........it will come back to haunt you. I can testify to that. We are human.......we think we don't have time, or we think we have plenty of time.......we think it can wait until tomorrow or next week or even next month.......we think it won't happen again.....or it won't happen to us. My most infamous line, but how can that be, I did everything right! Life is a gamble, even when all your bases are covered......don't raise the odds by ignoring the things that need to be done.
Next month, already written in my day planner.......days after treatment REST. :)
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Jilda, Jilda, Jilda. You are sounding so forlorn. That's understandable. But, believe me. It's not the end as you make it appear. There's lots of living, still to be had. I'm going to go out on a limb here and suggest you try smoking marijuana, ask your doctor. He should be up on the benefits of cannabis. Especially, when used in unison with chemo.
ReplyDeleteIt's just a suggestion. I'm thinking of you.
Wise words, do rest :)
ReplyDeleteI see it everyday in my work, but also in my life..I get so mad at myself. Well, you just take some time and rest and get back to your old self. Don't be so hard on yourself either!
ReplyDeleteHi Jilda, you do sound down. I know the downside of Chemo and as soon as you feel great again they zap you with more Chemo and you're on the downslide again. It wears a person out and I think that 's what's happening to you.
ReplyDeleteThink of the positive like you are being supported by a loving husband., and REST,REST,REST...
Hugs,
JB