(Jordan was here today) today, I have been a little down, today, I have had a great hair day.
Today, I was a songwriter who booked a gig for myself and a few of my songwriting buds.
Today, I did my third lesson in Little Course in Miracles. Today, I cooked soup for my mother-in-law who is in a nursing home.
So, I suppose today........I am an aunt, songwriter, daughter-in-law, student, who was a little down on herself. I am envious today, since Rick has retired he has a lot of freedom. He has been spending his days with really interesting people,visiting some wonderful places. Today I have missed the freedom of some of my past jobs.......the travel, the excitement.
I love what I do, but because of privacy issues, I go to work, leave and pretty much close the door. Because I am contract labor, I am not an employee so I miss the meetings, the connection if you will of other employees. It is the most rewarding work I have ever done, it is the most difficult.
I have accepted today has been good and today has been difficult, much like most days. The course work in Miracles is difficult, going inward, examining why I react and do the things I do,
is depressing......I am only on the third lesson and it is painful. I read a segment about illness today, in the course, and I have read this theory many times before.........illness speaks what your mind and body hold within....suppressed words, feelings come out, one way or another.
My friend Claude Thomas believes talking heals the spirit and the mind.
I accept myself today, as a little frazzled, a little depressed, a little envious, a little happy, a little tired old broad who will face tomorrow as a brand new day and do it all over again!