#28......there must be some strange activity in the stars and planets, everything seems a little topsy turvy.
Treatment #28 today, met my new doc today.
Normally I do treatments on Wednesdays, but the new doc doesn't see patients on Wednesdays so I had to reschedule the treatment. The infusion room was packed, the big green chairs were on overtime. Meeting a new doctor is worse than a first date could ever be. There is forced politeness,
and a strained intimacy.......he has seen my records, he knows everything about me, I know nothing about him......except he has six kids.....busy man.
I missed my chair buddy today, I missed my friends that make my very long day not so long. Even Rick was busy today and couldn't hang out with me. I made new friends, I always do. It has been one of those weeks when I don't feel present, I seem to be more of an observer than participant.
The nurses were so busy today, no chats, no laughter. A long day seemed even longer.
Days like today, are a challenge to the healing process.......trying to stay positive and upbeat.....
practicing what I teach.....letting go of worry.....remembering to breathe......
I am exhausted.
Goodnight, Sweet dreams
Thursday, April 10, 2014
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Many hugs Jilda. Such big changes for your treatment today. No easy in any way. Prayers.
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I dislike it when medical things get changed around. Especially if you are in a regimented treatment. It make it all feel so alien. Blessings and serenity to you- xo Diana
ReplyDeleteGet as much rest as you can this weekend, don't over do it... Hopefully this will not go on much longer... Have a really good weekend Jilda :)
ReplyDeleteOur chemo Doc was taken away...he's an employee of the Cleveland Clinic...I know everyone thinks that's the "mecca" of health care when it's really a mean spirited business organization...and now we don't have chemo done here and everyone loved him. As health care workers we hate it when changes are made. I hope you settle in and your new physician is a good one that you'll come to love. Have a wonderful weekend!
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